Let It Be

Well hello my adoring fans! :) Haha joke.
I've been meaning to post more blog posts. One, because my life is awesome let's be honest, and two..I'm going to get a bad grade in Communications if I don't, but uh..Mostly number two.. :) I've been trying to sew the events that have taken place all together into one category or topic, but to be quite frank, there's just way too much to sort it all out, and I realized that I don't need to tell you all about my life and bore you with the details of it all, but instead I should write about the thoughts that have taken over my mind regarding all these things.
In the last two weeks, my life has taken a complete 180. And not in a bad way either. If I were walking out of my math class after taking a test, this is the way I'd feel after totally dominating it and getting an A+.
Haha probably the worst comparison I've ever made, but that's beside the point… haha!
Everything has fallen into place, and
I will say that after this last month, it's very hard not to believe in the old saying
"everything happens for a reason".
It's amazing to look back on my life and see that every little decision I've made has brought me to this exact spot at this exact time. And if one thing had gone differently, just one tiny thing, almost every event after that would be altered. I have been brought to the realization that our whole entire lives are defined by opportunities;
even the one's we miss.
I am determined to take those opportunities by the horns and make the best of this life! :)
For the first time in a long time, I let go. I let go of the past, and I let go of anything that was holding me back, including those doubts that I'm sure we all have experienced that linger in the backs of our minds like parasites. A doubt about love. Doubts about school and work. Doubting yourself and doubting your abilities to get through the rough times. I had to start trusting that The Lord has a plan for me, and as long as I am doing my best, and keeping the commandments, I will be taken care of and those doubts won't matter anymore. They no longer will have influence on me. Everything will come together like a Filipino family on Thanksgiving day. (Haha! I can say that because I'm Filipino.) I won't miss out on anymore opportunities because of doubts.
I'm taking a vow now, to just let it be. Let everything fall into place. No more forcing square pegs into round holes. And no more doubts about myself and my future. 
I'm happy that the decisions I have made, led me here.I'm happy that I moved to Provo, that I attend UVU, that I am enrolled in Institute classes, that I work as a waitress at Wingers, that I have new friends who are amazing, that I made it through tough times and came out on top.
I'm happy.
I'm happy that I am here.
~Sadie Flores~


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