Google

Are you listening?
I mean, are you really listening?
Do you hear the deafening silence that has consumed the space between us?
It's all I hear now... and I hate it.
I want to be more than the person you sit next to while checking your Instagram.
More than the person you sleep next to.
I Googled what to do.
Ridiculous right?
Google will never understand what it feels like to almost lose yourself.
Google told me it was me. My fault.
My expectations were too much. Are too much. Too unrealistic.
I need to come down off the balcony in my fairytale world
and stop pretending that this life is better than it is.
... I know I sound upset.
But I am.
How can I let go of what I thought love should be?
How can I let go of what I knew our lives would be like together?
I knew...
I really thought I knew.
But I don't.
I don't really know anything right now.
Maybe Google is right.

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