Charming

 My whole life, I was trained to believe in Happily Ever Afters. The endless amounts of Disney Movies, and storybooks turned my brain into an eternal ball of sappy goop that only absorbed all things "love". At five years old I had already developed a mental definition of love. Apparently, love was dancing with Prince Charming, being kissed while sleeping, and riding off into the sunset alongside a perfect man who I had met just moments before. Not to mention we'd probably be singing a song that we both just so happen to know the lyrics to. Love was not something that was in any way unattainable. And according to my knowledge, finding your "Prince Charming" took no effort at all. In fact, if you just waited a bit, he'd find you. 

College dating life took all that I believed as a child and shot that horse right in the face. 
Happily Ever Afters existed only in movies and in the mind of children. I became one of those bitter girls who sits on her unmade bed with a box of chocolates, occasionally yelling, "Lies!!" at the T.V. whenever the word 'love' was spoken.  

I realized that the "Prince Charming" character I created in my head, did not exist and that my standards were set at a level that couldn't be reached. In my mind, I developed a system of scales that would balance out the more important characteristics of the guys I was dating compared to the unimportant. I think we all can relate to this. You think to yourself, "Now would I rather have a guy that makes me laugh.. Or... A guy that actually clips his fingernails when he should......" 

And as the date goes on.. 

"Fingernails. Definitely the fingernails."

This system of scales was used for quite some time. And though I had met some very nice guys and handsome young men, there was something that didn't settle right with me. I was frustrated that finding the perfect person was never going happen. 

And part of me had accepted that.

And then, just like finding a 20 dollar bill in an old coat pocket, I found love in a very unexpected place. 


The two of us went on a couple of dates.. And then a couple more. And I kept my guard up because I knew that eventually.. The system of scales would come into play once again, and I'd have to choose what characteristics were more important to me. 

But surprisingly, that didn't happen. 

There was nothing wrong with him. Everything that I had ever dreamed of in a person, in a best friend, in a lifelong partner, he carried with him. And more. 

The word "flaw" would no longer mean "imperfection". Yes, he had them. But they were what made him unique. They were the little things that made him human. Made him real. And I loved all of those "flaws". 

I didn't think that happiness like this existed. 

But I guess it does. And although I have no way of knowing what the future holds, I'm happy to know that Prince Charming does exist, and that Walt Disney was almost spot on. 

~Sadie Nicole~

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